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I
am pleased to introduce this Newsletter written by
Pam Duncan. I have been corresponding with Pam for a
considerable period of time. We have discussed the
case of Max with some frequency. When I met Pam in
Cape Town, South Africa in July of 2000, I found her
to be a woman of great sensitivity and her
commitment and devotion to Max was obvious. Also, I
was impressed by those people on her team who
assisted her in the care and structure of the
treatment of Max.
I met Max in Pam’s home, where he resides and was
pleased to see the amount of energy expressed by Pam
and her family to help normalize the life of this
individual who spent so many years being
institutionalized. This treatment form, its
location, is not unprecedented but it is very
unusual and I could see the effect it was making on
Max’s life. This is an ideal situation however, it
does indeed take some very special people to make it
a positive experience for people like Max. It is a
corrective emotional and relational atmosphere and
experience that I believe will make Max’s life a
much happier existence and certainly help him on the
path to recovery. Even though he may not fully
recover, it is my considered belief that he will be
able to lead a productive life.
I have the greatest respect for Pam Duncan and her
staff. We need more people like them in our
profession. People who are willing to help remake
the life of a person like Max who has undergone such
severe pain and deprivation over the many years of
his incarceration. This certainly is one of the
better ways to do it.
"He was a Back Ward Boy"
Written by Pam Duncan
Introduction and some thoughts:
Western society demands perfection, ironic is it
not! By the very nature of our humanity we are
imperfect!
It is this society who labels, ( you are
schizophrenic ) marginalises and stigmatizes, and
then allows a sick, frightened person to be locked
away and forgotten about for half a lifetime.
Two decades in a time warp.
Not only have there been ecological, technological
and social changes, friends, relatives and
acquaintances have grown old, lost interest, and
some have died.
The human abuses within the institution, together
with the demands of the illness provided coping
skills, and most likely a now deeply entrenched
delusional system. ( forgotten about and left
unchallenged ? ) Lost in a system and easy to
control with medication and lock up facilities when
the terrors of the illness overwhelmed, and there
was a need to protect self.
But, the institution was survived!
Question. Why should a person, two decades later,
and now further damaged by the iatrogenic process of
the institution trust anyone?
Unfortunately the institution did little or nothing
to prepare for the re-integration into 'society'.
I have been Max's 'home maker' for twenty months. I
am by profession a trained nurse but my post basic
specialty was not Psychiatry. The university of life
richly provided me with the skills I felt were
needed to take up the challenge for this pioneering
work, viz. the process of de-institutionalization,
for which there is no model in my country. Good
common sense, a long fuse, compassion, coupled with
a deep respect for the humanity of the sufferers of
this complex illness and a huge belief in what I am
doing plus an understanding of the illness have been
my 'academic' tools.
Max - (with exerts from my diary in italics ) ( the
early months of 1999)
We have come a long way in a short time. 24 months
ago Max & I had not even met.
He told my husband, who was the first to meet him,
that he enjoyed company but had few visitors. We
started visiting him fortnightly.
Max was been institutionalized for 18 years at the
age of 21. It was a big decision for me to agree to
become a care -giver to someone who has been "marginalised"
for all these years. It took me many months to weigh
up the pro's & con's but once the decision was made
there was no going back. I made a decision to accept
Max as he is now & with all that is in my ability,
strength & wisdom, help him to achieve his
potential. Deep down inside I have faith in Max and,
with God's grace I will enter this pioneering field.
Max was described to me as being "chronically mad".
Three weeks into my new career my observations are
simplistic. London has four seasons in one day, Max
has four times four on a bad day. In between all the
chaos of his fragmented psyche are pearls of wisdom
& insight into "our world," which are a delight.
*the institution is a finishing off school for boys
*Too many cooks
*the healing properties of the sea
*on seeing topless bathers at the beach – "they did
not do that in my time"
*Stacey (my daughter) drives as though the road
belongs to her
*after his first hair cut, 'this is a first step of
my new image before leaving the institution'
*Coral, ( a friend of mine ) beautiful, a special
person, is within herself.
*you have saved me.
*I cannot cry like you, I cannot feel like you, my
spirit has been broken at the institution
I will never be presumptuous & assume that I can
achieve the impossible. I am doing what I can in
what may be a very "unorthodox" way. Having said
that I am doing for Max what God has given to us .
When he is dead inside I pick fragrant flowers from
the garden & I say, smell this. I approach his
senses because although he may feel dead, those
parts of him need to be re- kindled. I use
aromatherapy oils. We have birds, fish, cats & dogs
and music on all day long. Even Mr. Bean has come to
the rescue & uplifted spirits!
Every morning I hold his hand and I apply
affirmations to his being. I say, "you are a real
person, you have feelings, you have emotions, you
have a soul, you have a body & spirit. You will
never be alone again. We are a team, you are the
most important part of the team. Each day we are
going forward together" ( the gremlins and ghoulies
are constantly gnawing to get out and be heard. It
is sheer hard work to maintain a constant level of
energy to distract.)
I know that with Max, distraction is a good idea
when he is at his worst. ( I am most sympathetic
when the voices torment him but I draw the line at
verbal abuse) I take him with me to the convenience
stores and a nearby tea garden & even with a bit of
huffing & puffing he can be contained & has not let
himself down. ( the vitriolic was directed towards
me today and I was the one going to hell. I had to
mobilise my shock at being the target, before I
planned my strategy)
The abbreviated version of this is that with Gods
grace & the knowledge I have gained I will do my
best for Max. He knows that we can only do this
together.
September 1999
From being a not very trusting, defensive and often
offensive person, who was and sometimes still is
whatever his hallucinations and delusional system
allow or command him to be Max has progressed.
A huge part of his pain ( viz. to be a part of a
family unit) is echoed through his now deeply
entrenched delusional system.
There are real life issues which have impacted
significantly on him. He went to boarding school
from the age of 7 years and a simple calculation
concludes that he spent 32 years out of 39 in some
form of institutionalized care. I wonder how many
surrogate mothers he has had?
From being a very 'dead' person when he left the
institution he has regained a 'life form'. He is
learning inter alia , to give an opinion as opposed
to the 'no' followed by a very hostile look. He is
re- learning social skills and some very basic
niceties. He has re-learnt to interact with animals
, an instinctive process for a child raised on a
farm , but a process lost as the demands of the
illness , within an institution, began to erode his
life skills.
I see a person, who on a daily basic is more
spontaneous , less apathetic and certainly much
happier- a person who is trying very hard.
When I first met Max in the ward of the institution,
I did not feel challenged or stimulated. I saw
nothing there to nurture or encourage a broken
spirit. Medication time reminded me of Jacques
Brel's "NEXT."
I concluded that he had spent 18 years feeling
helpless and sinking further into hopelessness.
March 2000
This morning auditory hallucinations occupied a good
hour of Max's time. When I sat at the bottom of the
stairs and told Max that he need not be frightened
any more, he replied that I must not be afraid! He
went on to say that he was angry with himself about
something which had happened in the past. I assured
him that we all make mistakes and that he must not
be too hard on himself. The interaction between us
was quite different to previous occasions. Max has
moved beyond the terror of the symptoms of the
illness. There seems to be a new picture
developing.'
As long ago as April 1999 I had noticed that
confrontation, compromise ( not couching )
distraction of illness directed behavior, and tough
love were the successful combination of behavioral
tools which worked. Huge dollops of human kindness
and a very long fuse completed the 'formula'.
Max has learned to distract himself from the torment
of the auditory hallucinations. ( he refers to them
as the house of commons or the little rascals )
Max has replaced some of the lethargy of old with
spontaneity and enjoys a full week of activities.
Max has learned to control negative impulses and
Max is encouraged to make decisions, albeit it
simple ones and to answer the telephone and make
calls. He is able to complete simple shopping tasks
without me, at a nearby convenience store.
This story is about Max's journey and there is still
a long way to go. I am his narrator until he can
continue his story without me.
My life has been enriched by his experience.
P. H. Duncan
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